The truth about all this.
When I first started my business I thought I had to photograph what everyone wanted and expected. They wanted posed, they wanted bright, they wanted happy, they wanted what they saw on Pinterest (P.S.- I HATE Pinterest), and they wanted sweet words to be written about it all. It's funny how things change, though. While what everyone wants MAY pay your bills, it won't make you happy. I learned that after a few years and realized, I'd rather be broke than do what's expected of me. What's the point in being self employed if you're only living under someone else's thumb? There is no point. So, I chose to stop doing what everyone expected of me and started shooting whatever the heck I wanted. In doing that, I found that I love moody, dark, intimate, and detailed photographs. I don't follow the rules of underexposing, clipping blacks, or making sure skin tones are perfect. To be completely honest, I don't care. What I want is to FEEL something when I share my work and I want you to FEEL something too.
Who am I kidding?
It was scary as hell at first and still is mostly everyday. There are two types of people. The ones that look at photography as art and the ones that think I'm just lugging this camera around because I want to be paid (and do so doing minimal working). The first type, they're my people. It's hard finding those people, though. And sometimes you begin to wonder how the heck you're going to pay your bills like this. Some months I scrape together whatever last bit I have to make ends meet. Why am I telling you this? No, I don't want you to feel bad for me, I want you realize that I LOVE THIS FREAKING JOB. I don't do it because I want to get rich (I mean, I wouldn't mind that though), I do it because it fills my soul. I scrape by most months because I know this is what I'm supposed to be doing, broke or not. I am where I'm supposed to be.
To the discouraged artists
Don't give up. No matter what your art is, don't give up. It is stressful, god is it stressful, but you're meant to do this, you're meant to throw up your feelings through your creative outlet. Hustle, scrape by, do whatever it takes, you're here in this very place for a reason.
To the people that see art
Thank you. You pay my bills, you feed me, you encourage me to keep going even when I'm positive I'm close to giving in.
And to the people that think there's nothing to this
I see you. You think because some people in the world choose a different path than you (refusing to play the corporate game) that we're somehow lower than you. I beg to differ. Choosing this path is not the easy way out, so very far from it.
Transparency is key.
I had a realization earlier this year and that was, people want to read and see something REAL. There are too many of us just playing it safe in fear of hurting someone's feelings. I threw that fear out the window earlier this year and I'm not looking back. I know, I can be a bit much for some people. "Shut up and just show me pictures, please". But you see, THOSE people, the ones that don't want to HEAR me too? They're not my client. So, if you've made it this far and actually like what you've read, there's a good chance we'd be a good fit, client or friend..I don't really care. Shoot me an email just to say "hey!". It's nice to know I'm not writing for nothing, ya know? <3
Now, enjoy this ever so moody session of my Hazelton painting for the first time. There's a film too, short and sweet.